Week 4 should have been killer. I should have kicked ass at all the workouts and eaten exactly the right things and been appropriately full from every meal. I should have drank enough water that I never felt thirsty and never got a headache. By Week 4, I should have all that down and be perfect, right?
No. Not true.
Because guess what? LIFE HAPPENS.
And life happened during Week 4, friends. I didn’t work out every day, but I did do morning workouts on Tuesday and Wednesday. I worked out 4 of the 7 days of the week. I may have skipped Thursday and Friday, but I finished everything I needed to do per BBG’s requirements. I am definitely gaining strength. It’s amazing what I notice my body can do now that it was too weak to do 4 weeks ago.
Food wasn’t the best, but every day I am still motivated to eat healthier. I want to. I want to feel good about myself. I want to be proud of myself. I want these things. But I am still struggling. And you know what? That’s okay.
I was really hard on myself at the end of the week. Because I bought a new dress for dinner on Friday and I was upset that I had no idea what size I’d be and if I’d even fit in the dress or not (still struggling with UK sizes versus US sizes). And I got down on myself. And I wasn’t feeling good about myself. And it turned me into a major grump.
Which is the absolute opposite of what this whole journey is supposed to be about!! Having more than one cheat meal in a week isn’t good for progress. But what about enjoying life and living in the moment? Isn’t that good for mental wellness? Turns out the dress was too big and I was obviously being way too hard on myself.
My Wellness Journey isn’t just about losing weight and feeling better in clothes. It’s also about forming a better relationship with my body and mind. It is so easy to get caught up and not know how to make the best decision. On certain occasions and in certain circumstances, I need to be able to let go and not get so stressed or mad at myself. And then wake up the next day with no regrets. Either learning from the decisions I made, or be happy with the decisions I made and continue on with my day.
I decided to do something a little different for this week’s post. Instead of detailing my foods and workouts, I wanted to be a bit more raw and honest about the struggles I faced as I’m sure some of you do as well. Society has made life so difficult, especially for women. You’ll never be perfect. You’re either too fat, or too skinny. Or you’re healthy but you don’t look healthy, so you should do something about that because it’s what? Offensive to other people?
I’ll tell you something. You will always be judged. I know there are campaigns out in the universe for being more accepting and asking people to quit judging others, but that’ll never completely happen. Someone will always have an opinion, whether they voice it or not.
So why care?
Instead, how about we just do what we want to do. I do believe we should all strive to be healthy individuals. It’s all about moderation though. You are allowed to drink and go out with friends and have a good time. But, every once in a while. You are allowed to have McDonald’s and go ham on some nuggets. But, every once in a while. You are allowed to do a juice cleanse if that helps you. But, every once in a while. Anything in excess isn’t good for you. If you’re happy with who you are, what you look like, and how you take care of yourself, then why does it matter what anyone else thinks?
My point is that I expected Week 4 to be polished. I had enough practice and learning through Weeks 1-3 that I should have done very well with Week 4. But as it turns out, it wasn’t perfect. Or rather, I wasn’t perfect. But looking back, I still managed to get in all my workouts. I noticed how much stronger I am. I’d say I ate well 60% of the time versus the 90% I was striving for. And that shouldn’t make me depressed or grumpy. That makes me human. And I quite enjoyed my cheats to be honest. D took me to this amazing restaurant Friday night and we had some of the best food we’ve had in a long time. And I enjoyed every single bite.
So instead of beating myself up, I’m going to let it go. I’ve planned all healthy meals for Week 5 and have no excuse not to get all my workouts in. Week 4 may not have been perfect, but I thoroughly enjoyed myself 🙂
Week 4 Tip
Let yourself live in the moment and don’t be afraid to enjoy life because “you’re on a diet.” As long as most of the time you are focusing on a healthy lifestyle, this will not break your progress. This will teach you that moderation is key to true wellness. Just make sure that when your special occasion is over, you get right back in the gym and to the fruits and vegetables. That’s the key to balance – understanding your priorities.
Let me know how you all are doing. I understand most of you are a week ahead of me if you’re doing the 12 Week Challenge, but how’s your progress at the moment?