As most of you know, I began my Wellness Journey in January. When I moved in with my boyfriend last July, we got comfortable and ate whatever we wanted whenever we wanted. After the indulgent Christmas holidays, it was definitely time to get back to eating healthy and trimming down. Kayla Itsines had been talking about the 12 Week BBG Challenge. As I had already done some of the BBG workouts, I thought this would be a great way for me to get back into shape.
I worked out about 3-4 times a week on average. I made mostly healthy food choices during the week, but would spend the majority of my weekends having cheats, or out drinking in London.
Because I didn’t want to become obsessed with the number on the scale, I mostly tracked my progress with my measurements. I noticed results – slowly, but surely. I could feel myself getting fitter and my endurance to all the workouts had definitely improved.
After my parents came to visit, I got back on the scale and took my measurements to see that I was not very far off where I had started all those months ago. So instead of feeling defeated and giving up, like I would have done a year or two ago, I decided to shake things up. I started a new workout regime and made an effort to make healthier choices on the weekend. Instead of neglecting my workouts for sleep or plans on the weekend, I decided to make it my priority.
D and I booked a week long holiday to the States for the 4th of July (YAYYYY) so I gave myself a goal of 7 weeks to see some real progress, not only in the mirror, but also with the numbers.
My downfall tends to be on weekends. I’ve learned that when it comes to maintaining your weight, eating healthy throughout the week and enjoying yourself a little more on weekends works great. But when you’re actively trying to lose weight and see some major body changes, you have to be much more strict with yourself. For me, this means one cheat meal a week and no alcohol. Or, if I want to drink alcohol for special occasions, I generally go for a vodka tonic with lime or lemon. It’s low in calories and has no refined sugar.
Of course I do believe that your diet shouldn’t restrict you from having fun or enjoying time with friends and family. But you need to be able to find a healthy balance. And learning to find healthy foods and recipes that you actually enjoy eating is extremely helpful too. There are thousands of blogs and websites out there designed to make indulgent meals healthy. It is the main thing that keeps me going through this. Check out Ambitious Kitchen. I get a lot of my recipes from her for dinner and sweet treats and they’re amazing.
Check out the One Pot Tandoori Chicken with Spiced Coconut Rice.
Check out the Healthy Turkey Chili.
I’ve noticed in the last two weeks that I have changed. Not only have I made a commitment to buckle down and work hard on my health and fitness, I have seen results that I have been successful so far. I’ve gotten a few comments from people I don’t see often that it looks like I have lost some weight. I definitely feel my clothes fitting better. And I am happy.
Any other time I have done a “diet” like this, I have been annoyed and frustrated. I look forward to my cheat meal the entire week. I get to my workouts and just want to get them over with. I never viewed it as a fun process. I never thought of it as a good thing I was doing for my mental and physical well being. Instead, I was thinking about how self-conscious I was around people. How others don’t view me as a “skinny” girl. And I just want to be able to wear shorts or dresses in the summer without my legs chafing because I don’t have a thigh gap. I was less worried about my health and didn’t care at all about feeding my body the right foods for it to function. I just wanted to be smaller and didn’t want anyone to tell me that I “just needed to lose weight.” I would have 100% taken diet pills or done dangerous things like starving myself so that I could see the number on the scale change.
Anyone else out there ever felt like this before? Or are you currently feeling this?
It sucks. It’s horrible. And it is not fun.
The thing is, the social pressure probably won’t stop. There will always be someone out there who is judging you for something. Whether your thighs are too big, you are way too tanned for winter, your highlights have grown out too much, or you look too skinny. Someone will always have an opinion. It’s human nature.
So the trick is to stop caring about those assholes who feel the need to express their thoughts. And instead, care about how you feel about yourself. The most important thing is that you are making a conscious effort to care for your body and mind. And that you’re doing it for yourself, and yourself only.
Of course I still struggle with this, and I’m not sure if there will ever be a time that I won’t. But as I have been seriously working on it since January, I realised how far I have come in this journey. When asked to make some treats and nibbles to bring to a family get together over the weekend, I made sure that half of the options were healthy and the other half were some refined sugar gluten goodness. And while I, of course, tried the “non-healthy” options, I stuck with the healthier ones instead. I didn’t feel like I was restricting myself. I felt proud of myself for choosing better foods as I knew later on in the evening, I would be eating and drinking some foods that would definitely be on the not-so-good spectrum.
And guys, I found these Healthy Blueberry Muffins by Ambitious Kitchen (of course). They are freaking amazing. They’re gluten free, refined sugar free, and are ridiculously easy to bake. I’ve made two batches of them over the weekend and they’ve gone down extremely well.
Now that we’re mid-week, I am back to eating healthy. I meal prepped Monday evening for breakfast, lunch, and dinner and have been fueling my body with good foods. I haven’t been getting good sleep lately and was so knackered yesterday afternoon but made sure to get my workout in as it had been since Saturday that I worked out last. And I’m glad I did as I felt amazing afterwards. My body definitely needed it.
I bet some of you out there are still stuck in the phase I was in only a short time ago. Believe me, I know it’s not easy to move on from that. You have to actively make the choice to be balanced and mindful of your wellness. Every single day you have to make a choice to do what’s best for you because you want to take care of yourself, not because you want someone’s opinion of your body to change.
My journey is far from over, but I’ve made major strides so far this year. I can’t wait to see where I end up in another five months. But I want you guys to know you’re never alone. Whether you’re trying to find a healthy balance in your life, or you still struggle with your past difficulties as I do and are moving on from it, just know that there are an enormous amount of people out there who are feeling and going through the exact same thing.
Just keep swimming, as Dory would say.
And send me a DM, email, comment, message, text, or anything if you ever need help.